19/12/2016

"I wish you like me again
Like before
When you liked me the most."


It's study break now. Everyone's back to their hometown, while I'm here home alone, most of the time. Not really used to being alone, because whenever i was free back when i was with you, i'd go and find you. It's like a routine, until we were not together anymore. I had to live the life i was living 3 years ago.

"I just want you to choose me again. That's all I'll ever want, to be the reason you smile, to hear you laugh everyday, and maybe this is very selfish but, please don't be in love with someone else."

11/12/2016

Hi to no one, I'm back. I'm here to write, to release whatever is inside me. 

Recovered this blogspot of mine, which the last time i wrote was 8 years ago. Wow. Of course i have deleted those childish post of mine which must not be seen by anyone around me now =D

2016 will be a year that I won't forget in my life. Basically I've experienced most of my bad luck in 2016, and it's still going on. I'm trying not to blame anyone on this, instead I'm trying to learn what's behind what happened. Everything happens for a reason. There will be something you can learn from whatever bad happened, be better, be prepared in case it happens again.

Still heartbroken. She is moving on well, I guess. I'm not moving on well. Now is the stage that I'm trying to hate her for me to feel better. I guess not seeing each other is the best thing I should do, for her to move on. I shall bear everything on my own, let time dissolve and heal everything. Without me knowing, she had became part of me. I can only blame myself for not appreciating what I had, and in the end I lost her. The only thing left between us is the promise I made. 3 years. I will live by this promise for these 3 years, and I will believe in miracle. Who knows both of us move on well, get to meet the better one and live happily ever after. I don't dare to imagine what will happen after 3 years. It is breaking me over and over again. 

Everything will be fine.